I don't feel that personal information like this should be announced on Eldemore but I also don't like to leave everyone hanging with very few updates. We are still actively working on things, sadly at a slower pace than we anticipated. I'm sorry this won't be a very positive update. I've decided to post all this in my personal blog at the very least.
The last few years were not kind to us.
I can only speak for my own personal problems and struggles, but know that Benathorn and Zayin also have their own struggles. The amazing thing about having family work together on the site is that when things are great, they are really great and we can get a lot done in a short amount of time. The downside to that is when there are family emergencies or tragedies it effects all the admins at once. Unfortunately 2017-2019 had things happen that effected all three of us deeply.
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2015/2016 - Finally admitting to feelings of depression, having a breakdown and getting medical help with the support and encouragement of my family. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and it is still an ongoing issue as of 2020.
2017 - We lost our Paternal Grandfather. Our Grandmother never recovered from his loss and her health began to deteriorate.
2018 - A cousin struggling with a painful illness committed a very public suicide. Most of the family found out about it over the local news. If you or someone you know struggles with thoughts of suicide please talk to someone: ( call 1-800-273-8255 and/or visit https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ )
2019 - We lost our Paternal Grandmother. We almost lost our Father due to blood clots/clot breakage in both legs and both lungs. It came out of nowhere and he collapsed at home. It was thanks to the quick action of EMS, doctors and our local hospital that he survived. We lost Rosie, our 15 year old Pekingese. We lost two uncles in December.
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I have only briefly touched on some serious things that we and our family have been struggling with. While I appreciate the concern given I don't feel comfortable further discussing personal or family problems.
Zayin is still working on all the new coding from scratch. All while juggling a full time job and despite everything that's been happening. It is taking longer than any of us would like but we have no plans to stop and will continue to work behind the scenes during the hiatus. Thank you for your continued patience and understanding.
I hope that 2020 is kind to everyone and that we can heal and make some good memories this year.
-Jendalie
