Life is Difficult Sometimes

I don't feel that personal information like this should be announced on Eldemore but I also don't like to leave everyone hanging with very few updates. We are still actively working on things, sadly at a slower pace than we anticipated. I'm sorry this won't be a very positive update. I've decided to post all this in my personal blog at the very least.

The last few years were not kind to us.

I can only speak for my own personal problems and struggles, but know that Benathorn and Zayin also have their own struggles. The amazing thing about having family work together on the site is that when things are great, they are really great and we can get a lot done in a short amount of time. The downside to that is when there are family emergencies or tragedies it effects all the admins at once. Unfortunately 2017-2019 had things happen that effected all three of us deeply.
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2015/2016 - Finally admitting to feelings of depression, having a breakdown and getting medical help with the support and encouragement of my family. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and it is still an ongoing issue as of 2020.

2017 - We lost our Paternal Grandfather. Our Grandmother never recovered from his loss and her health began to deteriorate.

2018 - A cousin struggling with a painful illness committed a very public suicide. Most of the family found out about it over the local news. If you or someone you know struggles with thoughts of suicide please talk to someone: ( call 1-800-273-8255 and/or visit https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ )

2019 - We lost our Paternal Grandmother. We almost lost our Father due to blood clots/clot breakage in both legs and both lungs. It came out of nowhere and he collapsed at home. It was thanks to the quick action of EMS, doctors and our local hospital that he survived. We lost Rosie, our 15 year old Pekingese. We lost two uncles in December.

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I have only briefly touched on some serious things that we and our family have been struggling with. While I appreciate the concern given I don't feel comfortable further discussing personal or family problems.

Zayin is still working on all the new coding from scratch. All while juggling a full time job and despite everything that's been happening. It is taking longer than any of us would like but we have no plans to stop and will continue to work behind the scenes during the hiatus. Thank you for your continued patience and understanding.

I hope that 2020 is kind to everyone and that we can heal and make some good memories this year.

-Jendalie

Back to Basics!

After a year of using the other blog I've decided to switch back to Blogger for its simplicity.

Still struggling with depression but writing therapy seems to be helpful. So I'll start posting again here.

Some things I'll be talking about:

Games

Makeup

Tech

Art

Misc. Hobbies

Here's a random picture of Bleu so this post doesn't look so boring!

New Fancy Blog in the Works!

It's almost been a year since my last entry. Seems about right for me. I've actually been too busy with work to do any personal writing or beauty posts. That's a good thing!

I use writing as a form of therapy for clinical depression. I get a few monthly subscriptions to give myself something to look forward to. Beauty products I receive or purchase make me want to take better care of myself. Gaming boxes are fun to open and give me something new to try and play during my free time. Anything extra or things that don't work for me become gifts for family and friends, since I have sensitive skin things can be hit or miss.

I also dabble in photography (I fell in love after taking in-depth courses in college) and want to start travelling and posting what I shoot. So I'm putting some things together and re-starting with a professional looking blog with it's own domain. I will post a new post with a link when it's finished! I loosely predict it being available around the end of April. If it goes live earlier then all the better!

I'm getting my health and weight under control. 17 years of weight gain due to PCOS, stress, anxiety and emotional eating has left me at 275 lbs. I'm 5' 1''...so that's grossly obese (or fat, if you will). I'm proud to announce that I've lost over 10 lbs in the first week! My doctor has put my ideal weight for my small frame and height at 115-120 lbs. So that's exactly what I'm going to aim for. I begin going to the local YMCA later in the week.

Eldemore has been growing and we've been hard at work on new features and artwork. I'm excited to introduce new characters, locations, avatar artwork and a whole new map section! Lots of fun new things in the works for this year. (:

Stay safe and be well!

- Jendalie

Petit Vour April 2015

So...it's been a while. I had a bad relapse with clinical depression shortly after getting back on, so I've been mainly focusing on getting better. Things are leveling back out and looking up so I decided to get back in the swing of obscure blogging. ^^'

I've re-subscribed back to Petit Vour, a cruelty-free and vegan beauty monthly subscription service. For $15 a month you receive a selection of sample and full size products. They offer free shipping to the US. 

April 2015 ''Spring Forward' Collection:

Konjac Sponge Co. '100% Pure Konjac' (full) $12

Lauren B Nail Polish in '#ImSoLa' (full) $18

Box Naturals Luxe Towelettes (Trial Pack) $1.29

Suntegrity 5 in 1 Tinted BB Cream Sunscreen (0.25oz) $4.95

Total Box Worth: $36.24


*I've posted links to the items on the product list for anyone that wants to do further research for themselves.



The Konjac Sponge has to be my favorite of the pack! It comes sealed and and dry. When wet, it becomes very soft and can be gently rubbed in a circular motion (with or without cleanser) on the face. It's re-usable and lasts about 2-3 months. And it actually works! The April box supplies a full sized sponge and I've been using it daily and so far I rally like what I see.

The Lauren B Beauty polish I received is such a pretty bright berry pink! Perfect for both Spring and Summer. This polish is from a 5-free line which means no formaldehyde, formaldehyde resin, DBP, toluene or camphor. The polish is expensive and alone is more than worth the box.

Box Naturals are packets of towelettes made from natural ingredients, no synthetics. They come in either Rosewater or Lavender scented. The full size product is $9 for 12 towelettes so it's on the pricey side. But I love the scents and how versatile and gentle the product is.

Suntegrity is a well known sun protection and skin brand. I received a sample size of '5 in 1 Natural Moisturizing Face Sunscreen' in the shade Fair. It's basically a tinted moisturizer with 30 spf. I've been trying it over the past 2 days and so far so good. It's very nice and seems to provide fairly good coverage, moisture and sun protection without needing to re-apply. The full size is 1.7 oz for $45, so it's very expensive. Looking at the ingredients, I'm not entirely sure why it's so expensive for such a small amount. But it does work so I will consider purchasing full size.

Again, please check out the links in the product list if you are interested in anything from the April Petit Vour box.

ColourPop Cosmetics

ColourPop is a new 'made in the USA' cosmetics company that's affordable and animal friendly (they don't test on animals)! They have a unique shadow pot formula and really great lipstick and lip pencils (or Lippie Stix). Every shadow and lip product is only $5 with free shipping on any $30 purchase. So I had to buy a few things!

My first order included two shadows in the colors '3' and 'Amaze', both have a gorgeous metallic finish and the formula has to be one of the best I've tried. They come pressed with a into white pots with a screw on lid. They are bouncy and very soft/creamy to the touch. Apply the shadow with your fingertip and then blend with a soft synthetic brush. I have never experienced any fall out or creasing with these! I then purchased 2 Lippie Stix and 2 Lippie Pencils in the matching colors 'Lumiere' and 'Frida', both are gorgeous nude pink colors! 'Frida' is a brighter warm nude pink in a satin finish. 'Lumiere' is a darker cool dusty pink in a matte finish. The Lippie Stix work best and last longer when used with their Lippie Pencil counterparts.

The Lippie Stix twist up as you use it while the Lippie Pencils need to be sharpened as they are worn down. The packaging is solid and easy to take on-the-go.

Here are swatches in order from top to bottom: 3, Amaze, Frida and Lumiere (Pencil/Stix).

They are all really gorgeous colors! Very pigmented and creamy.

I liked everything in the first order so much and with the new matte shadows released on ColourPop's site, I had to try a few more things. I made an account on the site and received a $5 off coupon which I used to get one of the shadows shown for free. $30 for all of this was a really good deal!

-Swatches and photos taken in dim indoor lighting.

 ('Mittens' matte)

 ('Girl Crush' matte)

 ('Desert' matte)

('Hanky Panky' matte) 

('Cop A Feel' matte)

('Sequin' metallic) 

('I Heart This' metallic) 

Swatches shown in order from top to bottom: Mittens, Girl Crush, Desert, Hanky Panky, Cop A Feel, Sequin and I Heart This. Cop A Feel is almost invisible on my skin. All of the colors and finishes are beautiful!

Final Thoughts:

I am in love with ColourPop! Their products are animal friendly, affordable, great quality and made right here in the US. The company seems really nice as well, with both orders I received a hand written note saying thank you or offering a positive quote.

I look forward to seeing what new things come from ColourPop this year. (:

Coastal Scents Revealed Palette

I received this palette in my December Boxycharm subscription. Coastal Scents has a nice selection of affordable shadows. It's available here on the official Coastal Scents site for $19.95. 

The included shadows range from matte to shimmer in neutral shades. All of the colors shown are very pigmented and creamy.



Shadows and Swatches:

Shadows applied dry (no primer) on 01 pale skin and with indoor lighting.

I'm breaking the palette into 3 parts to better show the colors and how they swatch.

Swatched from left to right and top to bottom.

The first two shadows don't show up that well on me.

This photo is slightly overlapping with the above one. I'm only focusing on the last 4 shades.

The black is really velvety and pigmented!















Final Thoughts:

I'm really loving this palette! The colors look amazing, natural and go with all skin tones. The only downside is the large amount of fall out when using a brush. Even when using my fingers some of the colors would get all over the place. But they are pigmented and easy to blend so that's not a deal breaker for me.

Technical Issues

I'm having some problems with my iPhone 5S (what I take my photos with) so I will not be able to post up November/December things. It's unfortunate since my Disney photos and videos are also on the phone. Seems that something is corrupted. Aah well, no point sweating the small things. I have my memories for the holiday trip and what I posted up on my Instagram profile.

So I'm just going to start with January...and pretend like nothing happened in November or December.  <<

I have a few beauty products and subscriptions to review, so I'll have those posted up later today. (:

I hope everyone had a great holiday season last month and that 2015 is treating you well!